confused

i don't understand why i get so lonely. i have 2 room mates that are literally 10 feet away, and other friends that i could just call, and would hang out with me in a heart beat. but i just don't feel calling anyone.

am i depressed?

i could be.

to be honest, i don't really know what the difference is between being depressed and being sad. is there even a difference? is depression just being sad all the time?

but i'm not sad, just lonely.

maybe i need a girlfriend.

wait, cross that. initials e.d. kinda ruined me wanting to have a girlfriend anymore.

unless the girl can prove to me that i wont lose my individuality, i'm not down.

i like being single. but why am i always so fucking lonely?

maybe because my schools is rural and there is literally nothing to fucking do??

i'm gonna accept that. i blame my school.

lol this makes me feel even more connected to albert einstein, with his quote... "why is it that i'm so popular worldwide, but still so lonely?"

that's how i feel, minus the worldwide popularity.

i'm gonna buy his book from amazon, and learn how to reject what we think consider reality even more.

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